The holidays and New Years always fall around the time of my birthday. So while everyone may be rushing to get in their goals and New Year resolutions in before January 1st, I have a little bit of extra time until my birthday rolls around to turn my ambitions, hopes, and dreams into birthday resolutions as well.
You know when you’re younger, you say to yourself when I’m XXX I expect my life to be here or I expect myself to be doing XXX. Well, when I thought about when I would be turning 25 (which seemed like forever from now), I thought my life would pretty much be set and in place. I mean… it’s the first quarter of a century mark in your life. That’s a pretty darn long time! You should have everything figured out right? At 25, you’re no longer in your teens or early 20’s where you can mark the silly things you do as those of your adolescent years. It’s time to be mature, determined, goal-oriented, and to be set on the path that you expect to be for the rest of your future. Pretty daunting huh? Well that’s exactly how I felt in the few months leading up to my birthday. As a Capricorn, I’m naturally a person that likes to plan my ways and my life. Yet, this past year, I think I can say that it was anything but what I planned. Quitting my job to focus on this blog and entering the scary concept of the unknown was anything but where I expected to be on my 25th year of life. And while I had been nervous, anxious, and worrying about turning 25 in these past few months, there was a moment that hit me that made me snap out of it and actually realize that I shouldn’t be scared at all. Because while I’m in this crazy vortex of the unknown, I am surprisingly more confident than ever about where I see the future going and holding for me. Instead of being in fear of the mystery, the unknown in reverse is actually quite exciting because that means there’s endless opportunities and paths that can be taken.
In the Chinese culture and calendar, every year has an animal like the “Year of the Snake” and the “Year of the Rabbit”. And symbolically, I feel like this year is now the “Year of the Laine”. To me, this year is a symbol for what’s to happen. This whole time I thought I should have expected to be settled into the path I should be at for the rest of my life. But actually instead, this year is the year that things are going to fall into place. The unknown is terrifying and never something I like to ever experience, yet this year, I can’t wait to see what it holds and to take you on the journey with me!